wow it’s been exactly 11 months since i’ve last posted on here… well this is my scrubby attempt to relieve a year’s worth of memories in a 20 min (max) read so 🙂

I’ve started Year 2 in Uni and I would say I’m coping better this sem and it shows in my grades! Really thankful for what I got and am so happy. Could def have done much better but I am satisfied with my cap now, so here’s to maintaining it and hopefully increasing it in 2017! This year passed by in a literal blur and everything that happened in the first half of 2016 felt like it occurred last year… I think it’s been a relatively smooth sailing year with a few hiccups here and there in April (i think) but all has been great, in hall, in school, in life. Had dark days but also had even brighter ones, loved and lost, experienced a lot, matured a lot. Wouldn’t say I’ve grown as much as I liked to but I think that’s because my growth is relative – compared to last year where I really really developed so much in Y1 (bc of hall), my rate of growth in y2 has been slightly slower I guess. I believe accompanying the growth this year is also this sense of understanding and knowing – that there are certain things in life you cannot control, that sometimes you just have to work around and with what you have, that friendships, people, feelings, LIFE is transient.

Academically-wise, I loved Soci at the start of the year and I still do. I really love what I’m learning in soci and I love studying it. I still don’t really know how to write a GOOD soci essay and neither am I good at it, but I love it for it’s content and the perspectives it teaches. I feel so so enlightened to be able to learn so much, to open my eyes to a different way of seeing, so privileged to receive this sociological education. To be able to look at things with an open-mind, and look past the consumerism, past the materialism, past the globalisation to realise that there is so much more to the world than what the human eye sees. It is SUCH a blessing to be able to receive this education and be able to make sense of the workings of the world around me and I am so grateful really. ok tbvh i loved all the mods i took this year, both in Y1S2 and Y2S1…. my UEs complemented my soci mods and vice versa hahahah THANK U NUS LOL really i luvvvvv ok done with the nerd talk and verbal vomit! Time for pictures to sum up my year.

Started of 2016 in Jan working for SG motorshow 2016 with bimbz Ng, my events buddy yay

Extreme joy and pride when TH finally won IHG Champions for 15/16 in Feb

img_1907CNY 2016

img_1986Pubs photoshoot for Amplitude 2015 + show day with Vox 15/16 + second aca perf #XXY

img_2100img_2279Processed with VSCOcam with hb2 presetPubs photoshoot for TH Productions 15/16 + Alice in Zombieland show day in March

Emceed for DND with Aki in April + last hall event of the AY 15/16

GER presentation with GER group which surprisingly was really fun hahaha will never forget our stupid moments at Raghu’s place where we were SUPPOSED to be chionging the poster lmao got a B- for that stupid mod but no ragrets cos group mates were gr8!

img_2343Cabbed down to Esther’s place the night before her birthday in to celebrate since we couldn’t meet for a proper meal cos finals

img_2374XE’s birthday dinner in May post-finals!

img_2403img_2384Shirt and I celebrating post-finals and being stupid taking photos on the Town green using iphone light lmao and visiting our empty studying spot

 Jesalin’s grad!!!!

 OCIP with TK4S’15 in Nusa Penida – one HECK of a journey in 21 days which I will NEVER forget. I can say with so much certainty that I absolutely fucking LOVED every second of it and every one of the scrubs. So so so many fond memories made on that lovely island and in Bali. I’ve wished a thousand times over that I could stay in those moments forever

Crashed THEP in June

KY’s birthday celebration

Gentle Bones concert!!!

My birthday celebration

Arts Camp 2016 OCOMM

BKK in July

TK4S BBQ with overly-attached scrubs

Art Science Museum with le shirt

Les Miserables w Esther after I ended work and I was so shag that I slept through 88% of the musical not even kidding. I really tried to keep myself awake but I really couldn’t sobs what a waste of money

THOC 16/17 E Block – shag as hell with only 5 OGLs tanking for 50+ freshies

Random clubbing night in August. Clubbed A LOT more this year lol whoops

 Emceed for Leader’s Investiture with Perry

img_337313A04 gathering – also another bunch I love, felt so so happy that night

Second for IBG wow wow history made in E Block

Scrubs in our natural state at Nat’s 21st!!! really really love them to bits

img_3521Mx’s birthday picnic at Botanical Gardens in September

img_3558Lantern Festival celebration with E block

Night Cycling 2016 with E Block

TH Bash 2016

random 6.30am shot because I hadn’t gone to sleep. Had supper with long lost Bay and Jesalin. Also stayed up till sunrise a lot more this sem…..

FASS appreciation dinner 2016 with my marketing babes + last of my side fringe lol in October

Block Comm 16/17 at the most upz ever angel and mortal revelation! legit freaking love my door deco

Random TK4S scrubs picnic under the stars yay

MAYDAY PARADE FUCK YES it was a dream come true getting to hear them live although it became an acoustic session I wanted to burst into tears I love them so much

Productions 16/17 at EnTHral 2016! Not sure where the Vox photo is lol

 THrill Night 2016 with my scrubby twin!!! we dressed up as the twin emojis LOL supposed to be dancers but well, we improvised with our minimum effort maximum effect costume + HUGE ASS SNORLAX

No photos in November because it really was just me stuDYING for finals legit. studied the hardest this sem lel

img_4410Baliza in December before I flew off to Japan. Was a good night!

img_5084Day 2 in Japan – Pokemon Centre + Iikebukuro

img_5120img_4093Day 3 – Meij-Jinggu Shrine + Harajuku’s aesthetic and festive Christmas streets and buildings

img_5150Day 4 – Disneyland to see my bae Mickey but didn’t see him at all so sad :((((

img_5204img_5214Day 5 – Ginza + Shibuya where we crossed the road 3 times and spent like just half an hour at the crossing alone because my brother wanted to take a poser step shot

img_4317 Day 6 – Mount Fuji

img_4441E block represent at ChrisTHmas

img_3995Carolled with TH Vox throughout December – Capitol Piazza

 Orchard Hotel

OK OMFG FINALLY I AM SO TIRED. This year has been a good run, leggo 2017!!!!


2016 goals

one month late, but better late than never right? I’m not going to call them resolutions because the follow things I’m going to list aren’t just things that are going to be said and forgotten about by December. The following list is what I hope to achieve for myself by the end of the year, or at the very least, see some form of improvement. so at 4.30am on a Friday morning, here are my goals. 

  1. Exercise well, eat well, sleep well (haha evidently already not doing this), study well. Been feeling fat as fuck and I don’t like how I look so time to start doing smth about it.
  2. Only care about those that matter. 
  3. Be happy. By getting rid of toxic people, fake bitches etc. 

I’ve never felt more distant (if you could call it that) from the one thing that kept me sane. Choir is the one thing I will never get tired of. Words cannot describe how fucking much I miss it. Am really awaiting the day where God opens the doors for me to sing in a choir again.

Phase 4.0 — Life in NUS

Wow, haven’t been on here much ever since As ended and that’s like what… 8 months ago?? I’ve been wanting to write for quite a while now but never really gotten down to doing it simply because I didn’t have the time/didn’t know how to put my thoughts and feelings into words. But seeing as tomorrow (or today) is the official start of uni life, I thought I’d just work on it even though it’s 2.46am haha.

So in the past 8 months, I’ve:

  • Travelled (Europe, BKK, Korea, Taiwan)
  • Worked (Zara, Ricoh, OC, SAP, Pico)
  • Made new friends
  • Reconnected with old ones
  • Done a lot more stuff which I cannot remember
  • Lost all the shit in my phone from 20 April – end July, PHOTOS INCLUDED FML

It has been quite a whirlwind but I suppose I have ~little~ regrets. I think it’s really true that we only regret the chances we didn’t take. I think I’ve grown a lot in these 8 months, stepped out of my comfort zone, learnt new things and made new friends. If anything, I dare say I enjoyed my time in Zara the most. Although it was a mere two months, it’s the most significant thing out of the entire 8 months. I learnt so much from working there and the people made work more fun. My thoughts are in a jumble right now so I’ll end my reflection of the post As here lest it becomes more incoherent.

So anyway, I’ve moved into hall (Temasek Hall) and made my first batch of friends in NUS from THOC. The E blockers are a really fun bunch to be around so I’m quite looking forward to this year with them. Second group of friends came from my Arts O week OG some of which, will be my lecture mates! 🙂 Am quite apprehensive for uni because I literally have no idea what to expect. It scares me that so much, if not all, of uni is self-driven. There’s not going to be anyone handing out notes or telling me what to do anymore. I’m on my own and this time, the playing field’s multiplied tenfold. As it is, I already am feeling so drained from the camps even before school starts. As much of an extrovert I am, I need my quiet time. I feel like this entire month of August so far has just been about meeting new people and having to put up a socially acceptable image. I feel like I’ve drifted from my old friends and I’m so scared of losing myself (again). I’ve been so caught up with new people and camps, that I take ages to reply someone and when I do, half the time it’s because I’m obliged to. I’ve barely been at home and I miss my family and home-cooked food so much. It’s even worse when I start to get nostalgic like this and I have nothing to fall back on because I lost every single photo from april to july and my memory fails me too. I miss SA like crazy and university life scares the shit out of me. Having to balance hall life + studies + NUS choir (if I do join) + relationships, it’s a tall order and right now, it’s like a huge wave looming over me and threatening to pull me under. It’s 3.34am and I need to sleep, so I’ll just end this with a promise to myself and hopefully I keep it.

In this phase of my life, I really hope I don’t lose myself to all the materialistic things. Be less concerned with the number of friends and being vain. Reestablish relationships with the friends who have always stayed since 2009. Remember to always be genuine, be real, be kind, yet at the same time, be courageous, take leaps of faith, step out of your comfort. Know your priorities, stick to them. Do not get caught up by the glamour of fame and looks. Do not get consumed by the thought in your head. You are your worst enemy. Take things as they are, for what will come will come and we will meet it when it does — que sera sera. Conquer from within. Above all else, stay grounded. 

29 March 2015

Dear Mr LKY,

Thank you so much for this nation, this country, this home that you built up from scratch. Thank you for this sheltered environment I live in, thank you for this comfortable life I live, thank you for this safe and secure country. Thank you for giving up your life, just so that we the people of Singapore can live a life of comfort and luxury. Thank you for being a man of such great foresight, with fortitude, passion and courage. Thank you for being such a visionary leader, and believing in your people 50 years ago when we had close to nothing. I can only imagine the immense stress you were under when we were expelled from Malaya 50 years ago, with the lives of 2 million people in your hands. Yet, you rose to the occasion and took it upon yourself to set up a cabinet of capable leaders and built the Singapore we know today. I know that no amount of “thank yous” will suffice for all that you’ve done, and no amount of tears wept will  bring you back. But from the bottom of my heart, I am nothing short of thankful. Thank you for dedicating your life to the betterment of ours. This city that you’ve left behind, is your legacy, your tears, sweat and blood. Rest In Peace, Founding Father.

In the words of Singapore’s Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong, “this week has been a dark week for Singapore”. I didn’t expect myself to be this affected by the death of LKY. I remember just a week ago I was telling my friends that I really really hoped he would make it to watch Singapore celebrate 50 years of independence because that is the least he deserves for all that he has done. On Monday morning however, I woke up to my father telling me that LKY had passed away at 3.18am that morning. At that point in time, it hadn’t really sunk in but at night as I watched the news, the reality of it all hit me, It is so strange to think that the millions of Singaporeans are mourning and grieving over a man that majority of us never even knew personally. But then I realised, it didn’t matter if we knew him personally or not. We grieve because we, as Singaporeans, all lost a legendary figure, someone who we all looked up to, or at the very least, respected. Look around you, this is the fruit of LKY’s labour. The skyscrapers in the CBD, the breathtaking night skyline against MBS, the bustling metropolis, all of these wouldn’t be possible without his foresight and leadership. There are very few people that I truly respect and LKY was one of them. In my very humble opinion, Singapore wouldn’t be what it is today if it weren’t for his astuteness, his foresight and his leadership. Sure, he might have made mistakes and many disagree with his policies or actions, but to err is only human. He wasn’t a populist and he did what he felt was right and necessary at that point in time. Such a man of great stature is very hard to come by and tbh, I feel like his passing marks the start of a new chapter in Singapore history. I am so glad I decided to stay on and queue for 6 hours at the Parliament House so I could pay my final respect to him. Knowing myself, I would have regretted if I didn’t.

This week, I also saw a side of Singapore I’d never seen before, not even during national day. Singaporeans united as one country to mourn for our founding father, extending genuine acts of care and concern to others. Even in death, LKY manages to unite the nation :’) As I watched, the state funeral on tv today, my heart broke so many times — once as the gun carriage left the Parliament House, another time as LHL read his eulogy, not as a son but as a PM, and another time as Mr Sidek read his eulogy in tears, and another as LHY read his eulogy filled with stories about LKY’s personal side, something which the public does not often see, and another time as the tv showed pictures of the pioneer generation breaking down in tears at tribute sites. Those were the people who walked alongside LKY and made Singapore what it is today. I think, to the younger generation, LKY was a leader with great aplomb, great oratorical skills, great vision. To the pioneer generation however, he was all that, and more. He was their only hope in what had seem like a world of doom. He led them out of the darker days and gave them what he promised – a new life. And so I suppose, his death hit them harder than most of us.

It’s literally “started from the bottom, now we here.” I am in awe, truthfully speaking, at the transformation Singapore has gone through from 50 years ago till now. I cannot fathom how someone can be so extraordinary, to have visions of a metropolitan Singapore 50 years later, to have faith in his people, to have the ability to motivate his people, to have garnered the trust of 2 million Singaporeans. But he has done it and I honestly don’t think there will be another like LKY. Having studied history for a lvls, I am more than well aware of how important good leadership is in the governance of a country. My SEA case studies have shown me that there are actually countries who have regressed due to poor leadership. And to me, LKY himself alone, is a great leader that I really find inspirational and admirable.


Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die.
— Mary Elizabeth Frye

Give thanks in all circumstances

Hi, I’m sorry for the unplanned hiatus but I’ve been really busy working and all so I don’t really have the luxury of time to properly draft up a post 😦 but I guess I shall do one now because my head is in a mess. I received my A level results today and I think I’d be lying if I said I’m not disappointed. I had a good cry over it in the toilet when I was showering and now my upper lip is swollen af. But I suppose, I have a lot more to be thankful about and what’s done is already done so I should try to look on the brighter side of things (hence the title of the post).

My results really aren’t anything to moon over and it really is very very very mediocre. In fact, if you think about it, it’s not even mediocre — in fact, it is quite bad if you look at the grades alone. Rank Points wise however, it doesn’t seem that bad but well, who bothers to count RPs right???? I mean, no one’s going to bother to count how much your H2 A is worth, or how many points your H1 B is. What people see will be grades on your cert and that’s it. So for what it’s worth, I really am disappointed.
I wasn’t really expecting anything but you know, you always harbour that tiny ray of hope. and I guess for me, my results fell short. To some, my results might be good enough but personally, I just felt like i could have done better. There are a couple of things I regret, but I suppose at the same time, I also have a number of things to be thankful for. I just hope that it is good enough to get me into the course I want.

So, whatever it is, I am (trying to be) thankful and I’m so glad there’s finally some closure to this hell also know as A levels. So proud of all my friends who’ve done so well and improved by leaps and bounds!!!!! It’s no mean feat!! And whoop whoop so proud of my class – third in the arts cohort!!!!!! SmileySmiley so proud man, so so SO proud :’) (technically though we’re second cos first was a08 and they are the scholar class cos + they have some 4H2s HAHAHAHA)
I’ve learnt a lot throughout the two years in JC and even during the collection of results. I have to say, disappointment and regret are just about the two worst feelings ever so I guess from here on, I just have to work hard for whatever I want and take the chances I get (read: live my life to the fullest) so that I avoid feeling disappointed and regretting. Thank you SA for two splendid years, thank you to all my extremely patient teachers who have put up with my stupidity and endless questions, thank you to my friends for going through this whole shit with me, thank you to my family for believing in me regardless, and thank God for everything (not a Christian but well, I was from SA 😉 and it has shown me that sometimes, bible verses are very comforting).

Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

– 1 Thessalonians 5:18


2014 has come and gone and I don’t really know where to start summarising this year but I’m going to try! I think if there was one word to describe this (well, now last) year it would be A levels????? I died a thousand times in the lead up to this national exam and it was really really hell – essentially the toughest year, both emotionally and mentally, out of my 18 years wtf. But that being said, I’ve also had a lot of memories created in this year that I’d like to keep forever, be it random, spontaneous ones or planned ones. I’ve also met so many new people and grown closer to my existing friends, so for that I’m really glad! Overall, I’d say this year was one hell of a roller coaster (I’m not sure if I say this every year, I think I do LOL but it’s true) and there were so many dark points in my life this year. But I guess if anything, I think I can safely say that I’ve matured a lot throughout this year and grew mentally stronger, albeit just by a little LEL. I feel like I’ve also surpassed myself in many ways (some good, some bad) but mostly in the fact that I survived more than what I expected myself to, or rather, handled things better than what I expected myself to.

I’ve kind of done monthly reviews of the major events in each month throughout this year of so I’ll just link them so whoever can read. But nevertheless, here are some of my fav pictures to sum up 2k14:


1. Counted down to 2015 at merlion park and watched fireworks with the best friend

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2. First trip out of Asia to Europe!! 😀 best 15 days of my life honestly!!! Smiley I will probably do a full post on this just so i can reread it years / months later so I can reminise :’) (but it will probably take awhile cause I have to edit the photos etc sigh hahaha)

3 – 5 December (Wales)


5 – 9 December (London)

Typical tourist shot hahha

Typical tourist shot hahha

9 – 11 December (Prague)


11 – 15 December (Paris)


4. Visited BKK yay


November (November, October)

5. Conquered a levels!!! (Ok somewhat)

creds to MX's film cam :)

creds to MX’s film cam 🙂

Somwhere between August – November (August, September)

6. Made SA my home, literally camped from 8am-11pm.
7. Made honour roll for prelims HAHAHAHAHAHAHA (but still not good enough for As 😦 )
8. Fell down twice at the same area in school and ended up with the same wounds at the same spots on my legs and right hand lolol (first in march during choir camp and next on some friday otw out of sch to history tuition)

July (July)

9. Quit Instagram and Twitter till 24 Nov for a levels lol

June (June)

10. Discovered the British Youtubers gang and was obsessed with them for a while but tbh, I’ve grown quite bored of them and now only watch Jaspar and sometimes narcus lel


11. Handed over my SL duties hahhaha


12. Performed in my one and only concert with SA chorale


13. Attempted to crash Jenn Im’s impromptu meet & greet lel

Spot Jesalin and I lolol

Spot Jesalin and I lolol


14. Watched ABTM the musical



15. Watched Rapture and was enraptured (lel)


ft. James the emcee


16. Publicity for choir concert but really just a phototaking session with the newly printed poster hahahahha

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17. SL Day


18. Collected PW and chinese results – yay for 100% A for pw for A04 🙂

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19. NJ funtasia and met kat yay!


20. Had Germans visit our GP class hahah


21. Took swag photos (feat. econs mindmaps)


uno cards pe shirt lol

uno cards pe shirt lol

22. Died during NAPFA cos sit-ups. died badly, legit.


23. AC Funorama


24. Got hijack-ed by hot.fm people at marina bay floating platform duing Earth Hour and they said the photo would be up on their facebook page but they lied so here’s one of us at SAM before that


25. Became a major die-hard Chris Evans fan after watchign Captain America 2 I think hahahahahha
26. Choir camp where I fell for the first time lolz

spot my wound hahahaha

spot my wound hahahaha


27. Gathered 20 seconds of insane courage at VC’s concert


best soprano ever omg (we don’t know her personally btw hahhaha hence 20 sec of insane courage)

28. Friendship Day (aka Valentine’s day for the forever alone hahahahah)
29. Dark days
30. Watched my first Kiwi Cup (SA vs RI, SA champs yay)
31. Chinese New Year at Mel’s


January (January)

33. Random choir photo hehe


34. SA open house yay



So yup, looking back, I had a lot of fun this year actually! excluding a levels and everything, if you add up the major events and the small moments, I’d say I had a great year. Made new friends, created new memories, emerged a new person 🙂 Without everyone by my side, I honestly wouldn’t have made it through and the year wouldn’t have turned out as it did, so thank you all so so much. Here’s to the new year!!!

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Europe 2014 (and timezones)

It is always sad to leave a place to which one knows one will never return. Such are the melancolies du voyage: perhaps they are one of the most rewarding things about traveling.

I’m typing this on the plane back from Paris to Singapore with 7 and a half more hours of flight time ahead and feeling so heavy hearted haha. 12 days in Europe and i think I’ve just about had the best trip of my life hahahaha I really do not want to come back. I don’t miss chinese food, I’m not really that homesick, and I REALLY do not want to go back to the furnace gah. So anyway, I went to Wales > London > Prague > Paris and I honestly had fun there! I went with only my aunt so it got a little lonely cos bro and the cuzs weren’t there but it’s alrighty, she was still good company nonetheless 🙂 I think I fell in love with all three countries, but Paris more I think heh. Prague wasn’t too bad; it has it’s own charm and all but I didn’t really know how to appreciate it and I think also because it was way too cold (we’re talking -2 degrees but feels like -8 here) for me to properly enjoy hahaha but I’m so glad I got the chance to go there anyway. Oh but CHRISTMAS IN PRAGUE IS JUST GORGEOUS AHHHH IT WAS SO SO SO PRETTY with the lights and trees and everything *ᴗ* I really want to go back some day. I think Paris now almost holds the same feeling that surfers paradise does for me. Am honestly and genuinely so blessed and thankful and appreciative to be able to get this chance to travel to these places, to see the Big Ben, London Eye, Hyde park, Tower of London, Prague Castle, Charles bridge, Old Town Square, Louvre Museum, Eiffel Tower, Versailles (was super excited when we went into the hall of mirrors at the palace of Versailles cos that was where they signed the Treaty of Versailles #historystudent 😉 ) and so much more. Hands down the best holiday I’ve had, on par with SP. I was danggg sad to leave Paris and I almost cried as the plane took off from CDG airport in Paris hahahahaha fml.

This trip just served to reinforce my love for travelling and how exciting the world out there is. There’s so much to see, so much to experience, so much to learn. Oh did I mention we saw Liam Neeson at paddington station in London hahahahaah. There were things I’ve never seen before in Prague, there were experiences that I wouldn’t have gained if I haven’t gone on this trip (i.e. Taking the London Underground (it was mad hahahaha), taking the Metro in Paris and the old streets in Prague), there were things I’ve learnt etc.

They say you leave a part of yourself in every place you’ve been and I think that’s true. Each time I left a place, I felt like I was leaving a small, tiny part of me behind too. And I think it works both ways — just as you leave something behind, you also take something away. And I think I’ve taken with me a little essence of Wales, London, Prague, and Paris. I left wales feeling a little more English (hahahahahaha), left London feeling a little more cosmopolitan, left prague feeling inspired to learn new languages and am now actually thinking of studying languages in uni huehuehue, and lastly, I left Paris 80% determined to learn French hehehe and I wanna come back to just sit at a cafe and sip a cup of hot drink and watch the world go by 😛 (my aunt said she can see me doing that :’D) so yeah I feel quite sad that I’m leaving but I guess all good things must come to an end… WELL, more exciting things await!!! (I hope)









One of the reason why I don’t want to go back is because I don’t want to have to keep up with the stress of social acceptance and expectance. when I’m back, I have to start communicating with people propeller and sometimes it’s just so emotionally tiring to have to deal with people. Don’t get me wrong, I love my friends and I love going out with them and all but sometimes it gets very emotionally tiring. I think it’s a Gemini thing but I love it when I’m holidays like this cos I don’t have data so I’m not connected to the world most of the time so it’s just like me and the world. Whereas in Singapore i have wifi and data it’s like i am expected to reply people and have conversations and meet them when sometimes I just really like being alone and in a foreign place where no one knows me and I don’t have any expectations to uphold. Basically I like that when I’m on holiday, I am on my own. It is just me and the world, mine to explore without having to care about anyone/anything I know. Just excitement and fulfilment. and that’s what made this trip even more special bc in Europe the timezone is different, so when it’s like 4/5pm in the afternoon in Europe, it’s like 12/1am in Singapore. I realised this while walking along the streets of Paris at about 8.45pm paris time (4.55am Singapore time): it is just literally me and the world now. For real. Bc everyone I know in my entire life is asleep. Except for me, trawling through the streets of Paris and exploring. And that thrilled (thrills) me so much. I loved that I was alone in the whole world, so to speak. That I was the only one awake when everyone else was asleep. That the world, the time, and the feelings are solely mine to feel and take and use and they are so pure and free. I think that’s probably also why I’m usually always staying up till 3/4am at night cos I am truly alone.

Wherever you go becomes a part of you somehow.

We leave something of ourselves behind when we leave a place, we stay there, even though we go away. And there are things in us that we can find again only by going back there.


Pictures to commentate the end of As today HAAHHA
End of As today at 11am. You have no idea how happy I was/am. Literally. As I’m typing this the bus now I’m trying so hard to contain my smile so I won’t look like a psycho HAHAHAHA I know this won’t mean anything in a few years time (by ‘this’ I mean the whole a levels and whatever) but let me just live the moment for now and let me relish in self-indulgence of frivolous things 😛

Wouldn’t have survived JC if not for them. Am so so thankful!
Ok so anyway because I didn’t really do a proper farewell post, I’ll just do it here!

13A04’s transformation from Feb 20143 to October 2014 HAHAHAHA zt made the biggest change I think. But I am so so freaking thankful for this class because they’ve given me some of the best memories during my time in SA. All the gl inside jokes and history tutorials and anti-rg and lepaking and gossip sessions and so much more. Words cannot express how freaking thankful I am for every single one of you because you’ve brought so SO much joy and laughter into my life and I love y’all so dang much really ♥️♥️♥️ thank you for every single day in SA 13A04 🙂

And then there’s saints chorale who’ve definitely made my life in SA so much more enriching and enjoyable and exciting, from syf 2013 to carolling to viva vox 2014! 🙂 I think without choir, I’d just have died from the mundanity and stress from JC academics so for that I’m so thankful.



Special shoutout to these three girls who’ve made my time in SA (both in and outside choir) so much more bearable ^^

And then the BFF, ct>sa 🙂 we may have led entirely different lives in SA but I am so glad that we’re here together. I really wouldn’t have made it out of JC alive if it weren’t for all your encouragements whenever I felt shit by my results and wtv. Thank you for going through the ups and the downs with me, even though our SA lives as so different, and I’m so glad we still make time for each other 😀

So yeah, that’s about it! So thankful (I know I overuse this phrase but I truly am) for the friends I’ve made in SA and though I didn’t upload all the photos here, I really am thankful. Hehehehe ok now that I’m done with the thanks and etc, time to do some reflection haahaha

I think being in JC really has made me grow stronger as a person, emotionally, and mentally. And maybe even physically hahaha but ok no who am I kidding I am still unfit. But i don’t think i’d have chosen the poly route anyway if I were given a chance to rewrite this chapter of my life. I’d still choose jc, still choose SA, still choose EHMl, still choose saints chorale. From CTs to promos to pw in j1, and bt1 to bt2 to prelims to actually fucking a lvl in j2, I’ve learnt so much and I’ve also lost so much. But I think what would really stick with me (besides the memories) is the October/September period where I basically spent 6/7 (some weeks 7/7) days in school studying till 8/9/10 with mel and sometimes KH and Brandon. Throughout this period, exhausting as fuck it was, I’ve grown to love SA so much, the environment, the people and some of my teachers.

I think, while my personal growth and development wasn’t as much as when I was in ct (that’s probs bc I’ve alrdy past the “main maturation” stage LEL), I did grow in other aspects in SA. Thank u SA for a whole great 2 years!!!! Really no ragrets coming to SA (THANK GOD I CHANGED MY FIRST CHOICE FROM NY TO SA, probs wouldn’t have liked it as much in NY), so pls #whySA #comeSA because you have the best cj experience of your life — exhausting but extremely fun. There’s a balance of both so pls come sa, really really!!! :)))) hehehe plus I heard they’re getting Japanese and Korean food next year so all the more #whySA #comeSA
Hehehe ok bye 🙂